On Wednesday I went to my oncologists office for my weekly chemo. I had had a blood draw the week before and was awaiting the results without much anxiety, However, it came back with high alk-phos and low calcium. I had no idea what that meant, but new it wasn't good when the medical assistant put me in a room to talk to the doctor instead of sending me back to the chemo room like usual. I was informed that the blood abnormality was a sign of bone break down or liver problems and a PET scan was ordered for Friday.
On Wednesday night Bruce talked and I yelled. It felt sooo good. At this point I am unable to enjoy any physical outlet because of my energy level and limitations with my right arm after the lymph node dissection. I guess I've been holding a lot of emotion in, but as Bruce can tell you, I got it all out. He was so understanding and such a good sport, and best of all, I felt relieved.
Thursday was a light activity/bed rest day in preparation for the PET scan. My mom helped me organize the kids toys in the basement in the morning which helped me keep my mind occupied, but in the afternoon as I was in bed, the sadness was overwhelming again. At night Bruce and I talked and a sense of urgency came over me that I should stop whining and spend my time being productive in accomplishing my life's work. It was a stark contrast to the way I was feeling, almost like an adrenaline rush had changed my focus.
Wednesday morning came and the PET scan went well. Only one needle stick was required to pump me up with the radioactive juice and I wasn't crazy antsy in the scanner. My sister picked me up from the scan and we went to Costco. I was convinced that the scan was bad, but was happy to be with Suzette. While we were in the check out line at Costco, Bruce called with the amazing and unexpected news that my scan was clean.
Words can't describe how happy I am and how grateful I am for more time, but had the results come back differently my faith would be unchanged because I know that everything is in the Lord's hands. He is mindful of me and my family.
A great big hug and happy cheer for my good news!!!! Thanks for your prayers and help with the boys!!!
Love ya, Jeanel
ps Race for the Cure SLC is May 8th, 8:30am at the Gateway.
5 comments:
Hurray for you and your miracle! Bruce is a good man, if I let it out and yelled at my husband I probably woulndn't see him for a week!
That is great news!! I am so very happy that it came back clean. I am so glad that you get to keep on enjoying life and making your amazing memories! Love ya.
Once again -- you helped us -- we got to tell our kids tonight that their prayers are helping you and told them about your clean scan!! Man...i love those words..."CLEAN SCAN"
I'll be at the race - run - walk...here's to great weather on saturday!:)
Yay on a clean scan! Venting can be very cleansing... you deserve the chance to vent. By the way, it's great to see that you both were well and able to play hard in Hawaii. What a great place to be after you were both so sick this winter. Fabulous pics! Prayers are with in your continuing battle.
So happy about the clean scan. Can't wait to see you and your family.
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